The Light Dies Down on Broadway, Genesis, 1974

"As he walks along his sanity's edge, Rael meets a sense of yesteryear. A Door in the room amongst his head reveals a home amidst the streets.

"Suburban sounds, the sounds of complaint, the smell of petty mundanity on his brain to paint as it carves out anger in a blood-red band, destroyed tomorrow by an eldritch hand."

My home.


Is this the way out from this endless scene or just an entrance to another dream?

And the light dies down on Insanity.


"But as the Doorshine beckons him to leave, he hears a scream from impossible beyond. Within the raging City writhes the form of Brother John. He cries for help."

The gate is fading now but open wide. But Nathan is drowning; I must decide between the freedom I had in the chess game or to stay forever in Hell the same.

"HEY, JOHN! He makes for the house and the Door is gone, back to the void where it came from.

"And the light dies down on Jordan."

End of rope breaking

Time has been passing for me normally.

I've been here in agony for days now. I'm completely alone, and not even the people in my imagination will talk to me. This is torture.

Not even the people on the walls will talk to me.


When is my time, Nathan?

Closed Door

Utter darkness.

I still don't know what that noise was when Nathan shut the door.

I still don't know why Nathan said what he said, why Nathan did what he did.

Utter darkness.

Video: "Time"

I heard the footsteps from earlier increase notably, so I turned the camera on and let it run.

Video: "Lit Vacancy"

I said I'd get a video up. For once, we have a door I want to open but remains to budge.

Lighting Change

I just got through saying this room is dark, and all of a sudden, the lights flipped on.

I plan on making a video. Don't know when you'll see it.

stress tells me safety died

I'm not begging for Nathan anymore.

I'm begging for the insanity Door.

loop

I opened a Door and

it slammed shut behind me.

This is the same room as before.

Darkness surrounds me in more than one way.

The beast that is not my dad rages and writhes from

behind the Door in front of me.

Fear overwhelms me.

Out of a window and into a room

The door opened and I could hear his voice coming closer with every stomp.

Then the window behind me opened and I jumped out and prayed I would not die.

I landed on a carpet in another dark room.

I'm not sure where I am right now. Again. It's just dark room after dark room, no exit in sight.

I'm not even sure if this building makes any logical sense.

feels blood

It rained deep inside this room

and all light began to cease.

The darkness panged every scruple of my youth

and my heart began to crease.

I find I cannot die much more inside

without risking losing the outside.

Why can I not say my problems here

without risking losing sanity within?

the beast that was not my dad

I heard footsteps

and then the beast came out of the locked door.

He looked like my father but he was a foreign entity entirely.

The facade disappeared and all that was left

was the inkling of a fear.

The hour of torture passed and all that was left

was the begging of a tear.

ALERT

WHERE THE HELL AM I NOW.

It's dark in here.
And cold.

There's a door that won't open, a lightswitch that doesn't work, and a window that doesn't show much.

Unsure

The internet finally works again. It's been a good few days (well, it's felt like that) since my last post, and now I can post again.

Sam left and I followed her upstairs. She led me to what used to be my room when this house was still sane. In that room, I found a flood of stuff I didn't recognize. As if someone else had been staying there.

I've been looking around for a while. Sleeping a lot, as well.

If I try to open the front door to leave the house, I find it no longer opens.

uneasy
uncomfortable
under my issues

The Slow Progression of

The laptop hasn't been working all day. I got it fixed. The day took its time. Looks like something else did too.

Walking into a certain state of
walking into a certain
Walking into a certain state of
certain walking state
Walking into a certain state of
state of walking of
Walking into
suffocation

Bed Hair

There's an ending in sight, but it's coming both too slowly and too quickly at the same time.

I'm sorry for not blogging. This was my own fault this time.

I've been afraid. I've been sleeping. I'm told I scream in my sleep.

I'm told I say "No, please stop."

Stagnation

Time passes strangely.

Music can be heard around me.

I hear progressions more complex than anything I'd ever even considered before.

I don't know how much longer this will last, but I want it never to end.

nightmare panic

I had a vivid dream of being unwanted, of being stuck with my dad's fucking fdsfdsabusefsdgjfhggef. And never being able to get out.

I had a vivid dream that this was all behind a Door.

I had a vivid dream that this Door was coming for me.

Darkness surrounds me

The calendar says it's the 28th. 24 hours ago, it said it was the 27th. This might mean time is progressing normally for me again.

It's still dark outside. It's always dark outside. It's never gonna stop being dark outside.

There were people in the video. I didn't see them when recording. I heard the noises, but that's it.

I'm gonna get some sleep, and then I'm gonna look around the neighborhood.

I hope I can run fast enough.

Webcam: "Been hearing voices"

I've been hearing voices, so I started recording. What I got was a little surprising.

message

5% of you want me to go away. I completely agree with you. I'd be better off dead.


You fucking assholes.


Welcome to cockroach country, this is my home now. And all you can think of is telling me to go away.


Maybe we'd all be better off dead.


Maybe I'd be better off, dad.

But where is the garden of Eden?

It's dark, the light is on and it's still dark.

There's a surprising lack of doors in this house. I've looked around, and anywhere I saw a door, I'd blink and it'd just.. be gone. I'm beginning to think I might be legitimately insane.

Whenever I stand in the hallway seen in my video, I can hear much movement all around. If I look down the hall, I can always see figures moving behind a door. Maybe shadows.

Time doesn't move that fast here, and yet it seems to pass quicker than lightning. I feel ageless as the walls rot around me.

I went up the stairs and found myself exhausted before reaching the top. I heard more noises, felt more darkness, and then I retreated down here.

Now I can hear nothing but footsteps and vague scuttering.

The laptop's time reads August 5th, 5:08 AM.

I'm losing track of time, and I feel a new sense of elation.

Webcam: "Update in place"

This laptop has a webcam, but the program for it was buried pretty deep. Found it, now using it.

Overture 5

I walked up to this house. I walked up the stairs, each step feeling surreal and slow.

I knocked on the door, and all life ceased.

Eight blossoms befell my feet, five sunrises pass in the blink of an eye.

I opened the door, and the house was both well-lit and pitch black at the same time. All life ceased and all life continued, it was past and present, it was August 11 2009 and January 16 2010 and August 7 2010 and August 5 2011 and September 26 2011 all at the same time.

Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

As long as I keep running, babe it's gonna work out fine.

No one runs faster than I eat.

HEad

WHat the hell I wentered though the door and dnow Imy head is jst kiling me.

I recognize where I am. If my hunch is correct, I'm going to squeal.

Door

no FIndings.

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frikdeolswp;aq['zx/.cv,mbn

A comment asked if there was anything of interest on the computer.

After checking, I have found a folder titled "CAMPER." Will reply with findings.

Am I in purgatory?

I'm getting kinda scared. Not gonna lie.

The computer calendar says I've been gone for at least a week. I was only looking around for about half an hour.

I couldn't find anything of real interest, besides a long corridor with a strange door at the other end of it.

I'm going in. No other leads.

Structural lack of Collapse

I found an assortment of buildings, some sort of structural site. Looks empty and forested.

It's oddly cold here. Suddenly got cold.

Inside one of the empty structures was this computer. Looking around for anything else.

questions Not answering

Aches and pains. The rain has stopped.

I think I see a city far off. An actual city. With buildings.

And no, I don't know where I am. The city nearby should tell me, though.

Teller of, What

Got a lot of walking done. I'm either sleeping for very long lengths of time or these computers' calendars are ahead. It doesn't feel like I've been here for that long.

It's looking a little bit rainy. I'm gonna hide.

Don't ask.